~ fattyyy

Once again I am contemplating what to do for the next two weeks. Yes, it's my 'beloved' school holidays.
My absence from vox for a term has not been felt by others, however, it is my duty to continue this holiday tradition I have built and to blog to my hearts content.
As usual, there is a substantial amount of studying has been allocated. Like usual, I wonder if I will ever get to it. Surely soon, I continue telling myself. But the lure of facebook, msn and Korean dramas is just simply too hard to ignore. Nonetheless, the very thought of an Asian fail (B>) in any of my undertaken subject propels me forwards. My do-to list is slowly turning into a novel that resembles a rather large volume of Encyclopaedia Britannica. Fabulous.

The near future depicts a book strewn room, the iridescent glow of my treasured monitor, the tunes of Super Junior’s “ Sorry Sorry” and SS501’s addictive single “We can fly”, and finally the near endless flow of practice exams, accounting homework, English questions, stoichiometry and locus. Horray for VCE.

Thank the lord for music and food. Without which, I would be tightly locked up in a psych. ward.

To guide me through the next two weeks is my gorgeous recently discovery, of which I’ve been advised against. Sold over the counter in any Coles supermarket are little pills called No Doz. Now I’m not one for taking unnecessary medication but this is my exception. Taking No Doz is just like drinking too much coffee; it contains a concentrated amount of caffeine that aims to stimulate the mind, to help you concentrate. So far, I’ve taken two pills over the span of one week. The side effects? A case of jittery arms and legs and I speculate a slight case of the slowing of metabolic reactions, hence, a decrease in waste excretions.

Why am I considering making No Dos a daily ritual? Firstly, the charm that the dear internet offers is just too tempting, even for an ambitious and determined ‘nerd’. Secondly, past VCE students swear that they achieved 90+ enter scores on No Dos. Believable? One can only speculate.

For now, i bade my darling internet goodnight. Tomorrow will be filled with spring cleaning, tutor and homework. You just have to love a nerd's holiday.

           

         

Friends. Something most people treasure. The people around you who help you when you're down, celebrate your success while really hiding their envy and jealously, the people who make you feel human.

but is this really the truth? this holiday, I've had time to think about what makes a good friend good. Is it that person you're always with? Or that person you hardly ever see but never forget your birthday?

to you a good friend will certainly have different characteristics to mine, however, at the end of the day, they really are the same. They provide support, hope and fun.

And most importantly they change. Now my friend of these many past years just happens to be one of those changing. From the helpful supportive friend when I'm hurt and injured, she turned to a conniving, jealous and vindictive person. From the fun and laughter, it turned to silence and misery. In fact, spending time with my 'great friend' was like spending time with a starving hyena. So then we drifted apart. Yet still she calls me up to gloat, showing off the trophy i threw away and she aiming to get. I'm barely 17 and yet, I've had my fair share of bad friends. But with every down comes a gleaming light; the minor fall and the major lift. I don't need friends like her, i don't need to be around someone who looks down on me or the things I've achieved and she hasn't, i don't need the rumors and the gossip she spreads. I don't need friends like her.

I find that the people you see less of genuinely make better friends. I've recently caught up with friends I've only contacted through msn and watched the epic Transformers II: Revenge of the Fallen. I guess you could say that was the most fun I'd had in a while. And men, they tend to be better friends. As my testosterone filled mate once pointed out to me, most guys keep your secrets and help you in solving your problems. They listen and they act; for your sake. And definitely not for their own gain.
I find that bitchy, rude and in-your-face attitudes need to be avoided, as well as the amplified personalities.

Of course i'm not implying that ALL friends are bad, it's just sometimes you find yourself in a friendship you'd rather burn. I've considered myself lucky, i have two fabulously great friends with whom i share the secrets of my life and i hope that these two important people will remain that way for a long time. In the time being, i'll find a way to rid this 'user'  that surely cannot be human.

nearly twenty four hours ago, i had a dream.... doesn't seem unusual; we all dream.
But this dream was different. i dreamt that i was older and that the people around me and myself had all given birth.
Seems normal enough, except for the part that it was all of our offsprings were animals. Could this be a message that we are raising a generation of animals? What's weird is the fact that i don't usually dream and when i do, a clear and almost certain message is decrypted by myself. So what is the meaning behind this dream? Is it a simple out burst of my imagination during the hours in which i'm unconscieous, or something more?

there you go guy who waved to me on the train, dreams and all told, expressed, shared and out there for scrutiny.
 

 

i've been stalked on whitepages.com.au.... i've been stalking on whitepages.com.au and i must admit.. it is hell lots of fun!
The funny thing is that no one cares that our names, our address and our phone number is arranged in alphabetical order, not to mention suburb location, for all to see. I know that my address is happily hidden on private.. but it was to my shock to find it starring me in the face when i decided to look myself up. I'm one for a uniform society and the whitepages just help us categorise and locate someone dear and near to us (i think) but putting us online for all the world to see is a bit much. I don't want to sound like an alarmist- 'ohh, it's just like 1984 and they're watching us!'- no i don't want to be that person, nor am i that person. But it would be nice to know that life out there still has some privacy and normality. Then again, without knowing where the person lives, it might just be quite a chore to look up.    

On a brighter note, holidays are half way over! (woottt!!!.. i think i'm the only one celebrating, but it's all good!) meaning only one more week before i'm off the UBS Finance Academy held in Sydney. Gosh i sound like a nerd. D : .. but who am i to turn down a free trip? Hoping to meet awesome personalities in one weeks time and skip a week of VCE.. happy happy!
Guess it's time to turn down the lights and invest a couple of hours in good old fashion asain drama before math methods becomes a priority.   
 

i never knew that school holidays could suck so much.. i mean .. here i am.. blogging, to absolutely no body on an account that i wish to keep separate from every one i know, about absolutely nothing.

here i am, in my darkened room, shutters slightly rolled up while it rains outside, taping madly away at my keyboard. what can i say? life truly does suck sometimes... and i'm not even depressed about it. Rather, i'm quite devoid of all emotion right now. Although i say the holidays continuously suck like there's no tomorrow, i'm rather fond of the long two week breaks. i know that no one likes to admit it, but a break from school and everyone you know is a good thing. I certainly do not want to see anyone from school, even if it's my bffl, which is why i'm hollered up in my tiny little room, somewhere in Melbourne thinking of ways i can waste the next week and a half of life. 

everyone says that school holidays are meant to be relaxing, meant to be fun~, meant to mean that you had time to hang out with 'friends'. i've had one too many holidays to know that it's a chance for teachers to relax whilst their students (ones who worry about their grades anyway-  aka me) try to tend to thier ever increasing work load. i think i'm allergic to school. i hope i could say so, but hey it's all good when you're up late on a sunday night, trying to cram two weeks worth of homework into 5 hours of pure hardcore cramming. sounds fun to me.

on a more important note, still i'm kicking myself over the fact i missed the epic australia vs. japan fifa world cup match in melbourne. missed it for school work... lol..i sound like such a nerd. maybe its time to invest in a good social life. anyone with tips be sure to leave it in comment.

while i'm still here on holidays, i might just wander off to hoyts or village cinemas to watch Transformers II again and catch another episode of 'Cinderella Man' (korean drama of course) - goggle the main cast a little more.